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i am sick of this place. i'm sick of people. i am sick of this world.

yesterday i wanted to post but i just was not in a good mood. and it seems to be lingering. nothing has gotten better for a week straight. all i hear, all i see, all i find out makes me even sicker and sicker, and i'm ready to get away. i would like to say death, but that's not the escape i need. i just want void. space. black. silence. so i thought i'd like to be shot into outerspace for a while. just float around and look at the stars or close my eyes and listen to wonder. no deceiving, no avoidance, no lying, no sadness, no changing, no jelousy, and no reason for hurt.

i finally fell asleep and then had a dream.
God is humourous.

dear ____,
you've got to be the biggest superstar i've seen. so much so that i can't look you in the eye.
but let me tell you something. your performance is amazing. no matter how many times you're in concert, no matter if it may seem a routine, everybody looks forward to what you're bringing to the stage, even though no one applauds you when you're through..
young people bask in your song with their arms raised, and your notes give the older ones a warm, fuzzy feeling. and autographs are free.
honestly you brighten up everyone's lives. you give a short escape from dullness when you sing. what they say is true... your opening and closing melodies aren't quite the same in every place you tour, and yet they still make the whole show worthwhile.
being in your presence has got to be a gift from God.

heart in prayer goes out to a friend in leb.

microwaved love.

flowere power. yes? no.

very me.

bundled up on my [future, awesomely red, super wide, super makhmal] couch chatting with an astro gastro.

it's friday morn, and tummy is complaining about me not having breakfast.
after doing my rounds restocking the classerooms, i updated the site un peu. see what you notice, from the obvious to the not so.

ah, before i forget, it's not "zi" koosh.
in the 'about me' part is an i without a dot, which is a turkish letter prounounced as a cross between the i sound in 'it' and the sound of 'uh'. (el, it's the one thing i like about turkey =P (other than tarkan) hehe..) i think it's an awesome letter, and sounds best in the mind.
but yeah, just wanted to clarify that. before zi juhmans get here.

everyone has blown off the face of the earth. especially the people most special to me. i'm more pissed off than i am sad. even ous who's out in the middle of the desert can be seen. where is everyone else?? mustn't have internet connection off the face of the earth huh.

orawas linked to this, and i thought it 'rather interesting': abou oo imm google.

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outside

...creating mood...

..and composing form..

nothin but a hound dog.

Solid. i love it.

Stone Mountain. there's a mountain of stone there! w-wow, what a great audience.

For ze pumkin festival. pahpahpah!

most of time i was singin "bale of hay-yay" [the first time i ever saw noush in concert. and that was her solo.]

how now?

HAHAHAHAHAaAhaa... SHIDDD!

CO. LOR. i love it.

he tried to take a picture. but i aim well.

"whut??"

hahahahahahahaha-(there're alot more-even one where i catch his nose)-hahahahha

but it's a-right. i think he's actually in debt to me with photos.. reaally goood photos =P

my mozilla firefox decided to reset everything. as a result lost about 250 bookmarks. so here's the new look.

1. i am SO glad i'm not going to be an actuary. i find out i would've hated it
2. (watching the teacher enthusiastically diagram) we spend so much time studying this world. what am i gaining from this, in relation to God? psh.

1. christian remixes rock.
2. so there doesn't seem to be anything impressive about someone sacrificing their son for other's lives. anyone could do that right?? it's noble. ok buddy, here's the catch. the awesomeness about God and Jesus is not that part. it's the part where this one son, this one guy, through death, saves the Entire population of this earth including those dead and to come. no one, and i mean no army general, no honorable martyr- no one- has the holy capacity to do the same. not even the perfect purity to compare.
3. i hate being deceived. you think you meet someone nice then insert one more person and watch the change.
   

1. i neeeeeeeeeed that camera. orange or white, i still can't decide!!!! y'all didn't make it a clear cut thing.
   
2. my mum makes the best apple pie in the world.
3. i realized what it is. it's not that i'm into abstract... in fact, pure abstract nearly bugs me. what it is about me is that enjoy viewing and personally trying to portray real objects, real feelings in a hidden way, one level up. {dawned upon me while reading ado's blog..}
4. i hate it when people don't say goodbye at a departure/log off. inno just something, anything... ....is it just me?
5. tmrw is friday. thank you Jesus.
   

i'm cutting my hair for bangs.
and i'm getting a camera.

a new and absolutely beautiful sound i've been playing over and over at work. check them out.